Hope

Every week we check in with our social worker and every week she tells me that nothing is happening, no movement, no ER's, no calls etc etc etc. Every week we walk away feeling a little bit defeated. Their have been a couple times that something might possibly be happening, and even though I tried not to get my hopes up, I did, and walked away with my head a little lower. I thought about writing about those situations, but it SUCKS to tell everyone something might happen then have it fall though. All you're left with are people asking what happened and where is your girl?
I was going to keep my mouth shut now, but some things are happening and we need prayers more than anything else. Our agency has 3 girls delivering in the next week and a half. They don't know if all of them are girls and they don't have a good read on all of them--our social worker has a pretty good track record of guessing if they will go through with the adoption or decide to parent. While each girl seems to have her own set of problems, this is more activity than they've had in months, so I can't help but get excited. They also have 2 girls that have a bit more complex situations, but you never know what could happen so I can't rule out anything.
So I beg you, send up some prayers for us and for these girls. If one of these situations works out, I promise you will be the first to know. If you don't see any major announcements or get any excited phone calls, please think twice before you ask about it. As excited as you are for us, we are 150% more excited, nervous, scared and potentially let down.